‘That was a memorable day for me, for it made great changes in me. But, it is the same with any life. Imagine one selected day struck out of it and think how different its course would have been. Pause, you who read this, and think for a long moment of the long chain of iron or gold, of thorns or flowers, that would never have bound you, but for the formation of the first link on that memorable day.
Happy birthday Matty boy. I was sitting here remembering all the birthdays that we shared. I am so thankful that I was able to share 19 birthdays with you and although my heart aches thinking about how much I miss you and wish you were here with me I remind myself where you are and I am thankful that the Lord allowed me to have you for as long as I did. Missing you and loving you always. Mommy.
365 days...since I last saw you face to face. You and your brother were sitting at my kitchen table eating birthday dinner to celebrate Jonny's 18 birthday. It is unimaginable to me that I cannot pick up the phone and hear your voice. I wake up everyday feeling like I should be taking care of you and your brother. I should be calling you to see how your day was and nagging you to make sure you are doing everything you are supposed to. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined that you both would now be watching over me. I wonder sometimes how I am not supposed to take care of you two..you both were such a part of my life...we grew up together. You boys were so special to me and we had so many fun memorable times. I know that I must focus on the big picture - this life is over in a blink of an eye and we will be together again. I was told in heaven one day is like 1,000 days and 1,000 days is like one. Before I know it things will be like they always were. This year has been the most challenging time in my life and never could I have imagined you and your brother would leave before me. The memories and messages help me get through each day. I came across a quote that I read often and remind myself that you are here with me until I am called home:
Even though I'm walking through the valley of the
shadow, I will hold tight to the hand of Him, whose
love will comfort me. And when all hope is gone and
I've been wounded in the battle, He is all the strength
that I will ever need. He will carry me.
