I was cleaning out my closet about a month ago to go back to college, and I came across a dusty shoebox. I opened it, and there was about 50+ notes you wrote me throughout high school. Remember when you promised me you would write me a 15 page note? Well, you wrote me a 16 page note and I still have it. I read through every single one. I never thought I was capable of laughing and crying; being happy and sad at the same time. Happy because those notes remind me of how much you made me laugh and how big of a goof you were, and sad because I Iiss you. I don't think anyone really understood you like I did. What you wrote on paper proved it all. I hope youre watching over me, and I wish I could be home to recognize the date with everyone tomorrow, but I'll be praying just as much here in New York for you. Tell Jonny happy 19th birthday for me! Love yous
thought i saw your dad the other day, i was awake, yeah ur right i was shocked. i do miss and lov you, nanny misses u so much, wish u were here, i wrote a little something for u, with all my blessings lov u........when i was young, it started to rain, it felt so good on my face, than i thought why? and i asked, the reply i got was it was God, cryin, then as i grew, i knew it wasnt God, cryin, it was tears of all that loved you, tears of those that miss you, but most of all the tears of you been home again........we lov and miss you matt...lov aunt helen and nanny
haha, i was jus thinkin bout the time i was walkin down academy right before i got my license an yu drove by and was like bitchh an gave me the finger out the window than called me an was like that was me, i was jus fucken witchu. haha, i still have yur number in my phone, an i called it one day hopein yu would pick up an be like yooo cousin, but wen it said it was disconnected i jus cried. an on aim, ceveryday yur ass imed me sayin "cousin was good cousin, i love you cousin" hah, i still, to this day, sign on lookin to see if your on, i havent been on in like months casue im afraid to see that box that says "cousin matty" and not seein yur screenname signed on. man we had some funny ass convos on aim, i miss em so much, an yu. i know yur wit jonnie an pop an yur dad tho, and that makes me happy, knowin yur wit the people yu love.
stay real matt !!!
look out for us
i love&miss yu like crazy cousin
It is your first Christmas in heaven and I am missing you. It was just last Christmas (2007) that you came home from college and slept at home. I woke up Christmas morning to find you sleeping on the couch in front of the Christmas tree. I am so thankful that I was able to have you here and will cherish those memories until we see each other again.
You know Matthew it is just like yesterday me you nan and your dad living in one house. You were always the only one there with nan and your dad and than i came. I am telling you we had the best times together with all of us and them memories are always remembered in my heart. Most of the time matthew i would not have been able to get through alot of things without you it was almost as if you were my mind telling me i could do anything and i could now i know i could. You and everyone else knows it has been along road for me and thinking back to all the things you told me I am greatful to have had someone as good as you in my life you made me believe in myself but not only that but in being a mother. God bless you matthew and RIP
